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Tuesday, January 10, 2012

'this is the day, your life will surely change'-the the

this is the day. 1.10.12.

if i stop to think about it all...a gnarly ball of anxiety forms in the depths of my stomach. sadly, it is not based on my own decision, but a response to the opinions of others regarding my decision. the stress and tension of entertaining everyone else's views on what i should do with my life...i am trying to be polite. however, it is so startling how one can excuse behavior that comes from a place of care and concern. if that is truly how you feel about someone, then those exact emotions should be shown, not masked in judgement. so many of us speak from places of which we are not qualified. since removing television from my life, i can now see how its influence effects peoples daily lives...and mostly in the form of fear. i have fallen prey as well. i used to be so badass...following my heart at all times. then, somewhere, i became a second-guessing, worrying, pessimistic shell of my former self. today, i say: no more.

it takes courage and strength to follow your dreams but mostly, tolerance. tolerance for all those that don't believe that dreams can come true.



i feel empowered. i feel a stronger sense of identity and integrity than ever before. i have spoken for so long, daydreamed and wondered. i have stressed, cried and been underwhelmed. today, i take control of my life. i take control. of what is mine. my right: to be happy.

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